The day the doctor told my husband that he had prostate cancer was a milestone day for our family. Being diagnosed with this disease so young, we didn't actually believe it at first. As we went through the day and tried to process the news, we came to one underlying conclusion. Get the cancer out asap! Now, this may sound like a simple task, but since Dan was so young most doctors did not want to perform the surgery. "Active surveillance" and "slow growing cancer" and "many side effects" were the only phrases the doctors seemed to care to discuss with us. We spent hours of research and sat through many initial doctor appointments until we finally found the best doctor that listened to our concerns and agreed with our decision to remove the cancer with surgery now, not when he is 65 years old. We packed our bags and we traveled to New York City for his surgery to be performed from the best of the best, Dr. David Samadi.
I wanted to share my post from that frightening moment, right after I kissed him and they took him back to prep him for surgery. It was a hallowing, empty feeling. I had a newborn (Londyn) back at home that I had left for the first time and I was in a strange city. For the first time I found myself alone with my thoughts. Here is what I wrote:
Today, the love of my life starts a new journey, and it is not one we ever thought he would take. Yes, we are in New York... But this trip is not an episode from the Bachelor like many of you make light-hearted fun of us for... Instead, we are here so my soulmate can be initiated into a new club. With this comes the added side effects of painful waiting for doctor reports, and a lifetime of checkups. So far, he has handled his situation with dignity and an unwavering positive attitude. I know that with his big, contagious smile and kind heart, he will one day be able to tell his story of this journey and be an encouraging light for others.
Today I am not using social media to post family photos or check up on friends that I miss. Today I am asking for help with the power of prayer. Please pray for Dan to feel peace as the anesthesiologist begins his IV, for the surgeon to have steady hands with the robotics, that the cancer is contained and easily removed, and that the recovery is fast and painless. I look forward to the day I can post an update saying he kicked cancer in the ass and he can proudly stand tall as a member of the Cancer Survivor club!
I love you baby, I hope you can feel the prayers as they prep you for surgery. You are an amazing man, the best husband and father anyone could ever ask for and the most selfless person I know. We have a lot of things left to do together on this earth. The cancer is not going to stop us.
I am happy to report that today my hubby is cancer free! He came out of his recovery process with absolutely NO side effects and we are forever grateful! Even though the decision to operate was no walk in the park to execute, we got it done.